ALA, daalu so, nne m. ndiichie m, daalu. daalu so, anyi niine.
how could i deny myself what you have given me?
what you have granted me, i cannot help but give.
coming into my role as historian in familial and cultural contexts, i have come to better understand my reasons for coming to this world. this is a work that i have always felt at the beginning of, until now. there are so many silences, so many absences, so many overwritings to account for. who and what is bolstered by the archive as it commonly exists? how does one bring back into Known Being those (narratives) the colonial and imperial archive has deemed unworthy, unnecessary, and threatening to its motives?
at times, i have felt as though my efforts to recover and uncover are not enough, but finally, i understand that my best is more than enough. remembering and experiencing the fact that i do not operate in isolation from my peoples - living, dead, and other - has transformed my approach to living and making. i am never without anything that i need because there are so many people giving themselves for my sake, and i for theirs.
the work operating as my thesis has not been allowed to unfold entirely naturally due to the restrictions of the institution. it perseveres nonetheless. what is is, regardless of its surroundings. what must occur will occur, despite attempts towards otherwise.
these archival photos of the ancestors whose blood has given me form are precious. the words that exist alongside them are my own reflections on my lineage, my ancestors, the roles we play in each others’ unfoldings.
as we unfold, we help those around us, in all directions through space and time, to unfold.
i give thanks to and for all who embody and surpass the agreements they planted before coming to this world. daalu. wanenu.
as you pass through,
hover over fading words.
pull text around the page.
what new phrases do you create?
some images are activated by movement.
reflect on your own connections to those in your lineage.
where do you stand amongst them?
how can you make yourSelves more whole?